Monday, September 26, 2011

Healing

Healing comes in many different ways and sometimes you don't realize you are healing yourself until it has already happened.
For some reason God told me that I needed to take Randi to the Clemson game on Saturday after her birthday party.  I still think it was a crazy thing for me to do, but I now know why God led me to the decisions I made for us on Saturday.
I don't think I have ever had so much fun at a Clemson game.  Seeing my daughter's love for the team I love so much melts my heart.  I smiled and cried more than I have in a long time.
It wasn't until I got home that I realized that the events of the day, was just what I needed.  I needed to take Randi to Clemson.  I needed to do it by myself.  I needed to smile and cry.
Now, you may be asking why I needed this day so much.
 I needed this day to heal.  To heal my broken heart.
 I didn't feel right from the moment we found out we were expecting another baby.  
Due to what happened with our twins, we decided to keep the pregnancy a secret until we knew for sure everything was OK.
I was 6 weeks along when we lost the baby and I have been lost since that day. 
 I kept asking why?  Why did this happen to us again and why now?  
We had planed for this baby for over a year.
But God has a different plan for us and on Saturday, he told me why we lost our baby.  

I hope that you are not upset with us for finding out about our baby on our blog, 
but I just didn't know how to say it out loud.  
Now that I am finally in a good place about our baby, I am able to share with you.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Huddy Buddy turs ONE!

Today Randi and I drove to Hudson's 1st Birthday!  We had so much fun!  
Aunt Jen, Sadie's Mom, did a fabulous job on his party!




 The Birthday Boy!
 Girls just wanna have fun!




Happy 1st Birthday Hudson!  
We love you!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Studio Dress-Up

Randi played dress-up in the studio tonight!